This is what we do…we learn to take our gifts away from others when they/we are what WE perceive as bad…does this make sense? Our LIVEs become filled with holding our BRILLIANCE under a basket and shame others trying to shine on their own…reading this over MAKES no SENSE to me…I don’t know how to explain the confusion I SEE.
Does anyone else understand? Does anyone see what I’m trying to DO with my WORDS, does it really MATTER? What do we tell ourselves when we look in the mirror? Do WE BElive we are the most BEAUTIFUL CREATURES on this planet or ARE WE flawed?
I guess if MY WORDS really MATTERed I’d get more views…but then that would also mean that my tiny life wouldn’t be so tiny anymore…in my vision there is a male energy next to me…at least a foot taller than me by my side. A few months ago while I was in the UK I was told there was an energy, her vision was tall, dark and handsome…I AM trying to be OPEN to every possibility. What is the resistance? I have a hard time cutting cords…I guess I trust that other huMANs SEE the SAME DREAMS as ME…
I AM GRATEFUL today…I was literally pushed out on the dance floor Friday night. I think whoever is watching over me knew my desire to be dancing. I’ve been praying for a push, I was praying for some kind of support from someone to be noticed…and I was. I need to be more specific about the partner, actually I was at one time, but that dance didn’t last…
I think WE are both late BLOOMers in different ways. RIGHT NOW he reminds me of a kid in a candy store and I’m HAPPY for him, I hope it’s everything he’s dreamed of. At one time I though he was the big brother I was praying for, I don’t think he realizes how much VALUE I feel HE ADDed to MY LIFE when we met. The memories of him have invaded my brain too many times to be only friends, in my outer world he felt like the path of least resistance…today HE is just a fantasy of what COULD BE, if it’s not him, it’s someone a lot like him.
I’m working on enjoying the journey…the roller coaster of life, my desire at this time is to have more highs…having never experienced this in the “REAL WORLD” I wouldn’t even know what that looks like, I’m still blazing a trail. This is MY FANTASY not HIS…or IS IT?
What energy, space and consciousness would it take to partner with another that could ONLY SEE the BRILLIANCE in YOU, one who only wants to LIVE searching for BLISS? I’m tired of feeling like I have to shrink and hold back, why should I BE the one retracting and FEELing unSAFE when all I want to do is HELP OTHERS SEE the BRILLIANCE I SEE in them?