#5 70% of Highly Sensitive Personalities are introverts.
This picture really describes how I feel…I really can’t add much more ❤
Yesterday my desire was to see a miracle every day. I don’t think I was clear enough because there are miracles everywhere you look.
MY DESIRE is to see a miracle of HUMANS overcoming obstacles and BEing HAPPY every day.
The miracle of HUMANS realizing they are PERFECT just the way they are and BELIEVE they deserve the best.
I’m realizing how much easier it is for me to have a relationship online than in real life…
It gives me time to contemplate. I don’t have to be spontaneous with my thoughts or words. Maybe that is why an introvert needs the time alone. It’s exhausting being around people when you can’t observe before you speak. LOL the narcissist really helped me in this area…I never had a chance to talk.
I have to laugh about this now, how many years did I allow him to discount everything I said? It all feels so ludicrous today. It started as looks, or his breath, I could see the change in him when I said the wrong thing or looked the wrong way…and it became his fuel when he wanted me to feel as bad as him.
I felt his judgement on everyone and everything…it all looked good on the outside. Many times we heard things like, “I love you guys, you are the perfect couple”, “your family is like the Brady bunch”…one of our friends little boy said we were like the Simpsons.
I was his trained monkey. Now I tell people from my past that “Lee was the ass end of brad, I don’t live there anymore”…and some still call me Lee. Every time I hear that name I cringe…everytime someone calls me Lila…I feel kind of empty and…I guess Lila is looking for a story to tell, right now Lila has a desire to tell stories about the people she’s met and the changes they’ve made in their lives. I do know a few who have overcome major obstacles, but so many are struggling for money, the almighty dollar…I don’t comprehend this, is it my own stress or am I picking it up from them?
I decided I NEED a PARTNER to help me count the cost…how much more weird can a person be? I don’t even think about money unless I’m forced to. This is probably my biggest concern about being in the presence of 99.5% of the people I’ve met. Three countries, multiple cities and towns…the prevelant thought in the majority of them feels like money is their main concern…it works for them, it’s just not my concern. To live in the “real” world dealing with money is required. I have as much interest in talking about a car engine than I do money…a least a car engine makes more sense.
I’ve been asking others what their blocks are and I need to ask myself…maybe my next Face Book post will be about HSPs and money…
What has been my biggest resistance? Today I’m feeling a lot of pressure in my chest and it’s about people’s attitudes about money…why is it placed above HUMANS? Why do humans place a higher value on money than HUMANS? Why are so many HEART CENTERED HUMANS struggling to survive in this world?
I AM GRATEFUL for at least one friend today that sees the fallacy of it all…
I just heard from another high school friend. Not like we hung out, more like acquaintances, I don’t remember how we connected but she found out about HSP about the time I did, it’s been months since I’ve heard from her but we’re Face Book friends. This was the miracle I asked for today, it’s not even 8 am and it’s happening…
Hi Miss Lila,
I’m sending you a big hug today as my heart is really filled with joy. I seem to be in a spiritual fast forward…guess what? I’m tapping! I am also reprogramming some of the old messages that have been going on in my head all these years. I’m re-prioritizing things in my life and studying an online course called “dream building”. It took a significant amount of time, energy and investing in myself. I actually started the course last summer and then became filled with some unnamed fear and almost quit 😦 I made excuses to myself why I wasn’t good enough to do that, and I also procrastinated like you wouldn’t believe! But, eventually I’ve come full circle and now I’m moving through the procrastination, yay! I just finished tapping a meditation for release of procrastination. So I guess I better get on with my day but I just had to share this with you my friend! And I know that you are having miraculous things happening in your life as well! Isn’t it great to support each other in this great adventure? Hugs, Rose
I AM SEEING MIRACLES IN HUMANS EVERYWHERE